Milestone...
I have hit a milestone that I have not hit since I was in boot camp from than 16 years ago... I have done a running streak for 14 days now. Would be longer, but I took a day off that first week before I made the commitment to do this.
Things I have gone through thus far. I still should take my thyroid medication even if I don't feel like I need it. I still need it. I have been going for short socks durning the summer time since I want to have the sunlight on my legs and not have weird tan lines. It looks like tan lines are in my future as I didn't have as many problems with my shins with them on as I do with them not on.. Compression socks I mean. They help a great deal with how my legs feel and from that, are able to work properly. Which means I now need to find the cash flow to purchase some more of them. Thinking about the 5 for $100. They are so going to be worth it. Just have to make due with the few pairs that I have right now. While I love running with my dog, she makes my back hurt something fierce.
For today, I had the option of going to run this morning or going this evening. I wanted to go this morning, but, spending time with my love was more important at that time than running was. So, I went tonight after work. I got home and changed rather quickly, dinner was going to be put on as soon as I was home. I was told 30 minutes would be a good time for us to eat, so off I went. I didn't take the dog with me today so it was just me. I liked it being just me.
I had my new shoes one and though I could feel how much better they felt for my legs and my feet, my shins would just not loosen up for me. I was starting to feel bad about my running. The feelings of inadequacy were coming to the forefront of my mind, and I couldn't stop them. What makes me think I'm a serious running, with how much walking I was doing, how could I say that? How would I ever reach my goal for 1000 miles this year with this kind of progress? What am I thinking I can do this? These thoughts haunted me for the better part of the run and I was feeling like I wanted to give up. I didn't want to try anymore, why bother, I just seem to get hurt every time I make a commitment to something that is this big for me. I am not worthy.
I couldn't help but notice how bad the pain was getting in my shins, I wanted to keep running so badly but I couldn't seem to get through this. Finally, I just went with it, starting slowly to keep any sort of pace and then, just keep going. I had to try to trick my brain into thinking about some thing other than my legs and so I thought more about the music I was listening to... Nine Inch Nails and Rob Zombie. good combination I think. It was ok at best for the run. I did see a beautiful hawk out looking for his dinner and a lovely little robin just chilling on the fence. It wasn't a good run, but, I'm glad that I forced myself to keep going for those 2 miles. I have learned some things today, hopefully it will help me stay focused and ready to do anything.
Today wasn't a victorious run for me in any way, but, I will keep going. This is my commitment to myself and to you, dear ready that I want to finish something big for me like this. It keeps me motivated to be better everyday.
Happy Running all~
Things I have gone through thus far. I still should take my thyroid medication even if I don't feel like I need it. I still need it. I have been going for short socks durning the summer time since I want to have the sunlight on my legs and not have weird tan lines. It looks like tan lines are in my future as I didn't have as many problems with my shins with them on as I do with them not on.. Compression socks I mean. They help a great deal with how my legs feel and from that, are able to work properly. Which means I now need to find the cash flow to purchase some more of them. Thinking about the 5 for $100. They are so going to be worth it. Just have to make due with the few pairs that I have right now. While I love running with my dog, she makes my back hurt something fierce.
For today, I had the option of going to run this morning or going this evening. I wanted to go this morning, but, spending time with my love was more important at that time than running was. So, I went tonight after work. I got home and changed rather quickly, dinner was going to be put on as soon as I was home. I was told 30 minutes would be a good time for us to eat, so off I went. I didn't take the dog with me today so it was just me. I liked it being just me.
I had my new shoes one and though I could feel how much better they felt for my legs and my feet, my shins would just not loosen up for me. I was starting to feel bad about my running. The feelings of inadequacy were coming to the forefront of my mind, and I couldn't stop them. What makes me think I'm a serious running, with how much walking I was doing, how could I say that? How would I ever reach my goal for 1000 miles this year with this kind of progress? What am I thinking I can do this? These thoughts haunted me for the better part of the run and I was feeling like I wanted to give up. I didn't want to try anymore, why bother, I just seem to get hurt every time I make a commitment to something that is this big for me. I am not worthy.
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| Hello little robin |
I couldn't help but notice how bad the pain was getting in my shins, I wanted to keep running so badly but I couldn't seem to get through this. Finally, I just went with it, starting slowly to keep any sort of pace and then, just keep going. I had to try to trick my brain into thinking about some thing other than my legs and so I thought more about the music I was listening to... Nine Inch Nails and Rob Zombie. good combination I think. It was ok at best for the run. I did see a beautiful hawk out looking for his dinner and a lovely little robin just chilling on the fence. It wasn't a good run, but, I'm glad that I forced myself to keep going for those 2 miles. I have learned some things today, hopefully it will help me stay focused and ready to do anything.
Today wasn't a victorious run for me in any way, but, I will keep going. This is my commitment to myself and to you, dear ready that I want to finish something big for me like this. It keeps me motivated to be better everyday.
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| So disappointed with my time, just keeps going down |
Happy Running all~
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