200 Days of Running

Today was one of those days.  The kind that seem to come out of left field at hit you in the face with all the gusto that bad days seem to hurl at you.  And what's strange, is the last week has been pretty darn good.  Runs felt amazing, the music was excellent, work wasn't terrible, and I remembered to take my medication everyday.  Then today came and I was taken down a peg or eight. Let me rewind a day.  I went out for the first trail run of the season, to celebrate the coming of spring.  It was amazing and wonderful and I was so happy to be outside.  It was not too windy to start out and it sunny and the trees were amazing.  I was loving every bit of it.  Well, except for the hills and the rocks and being pulled down the hills with dog attached to me.  It was a wonderful run. After running, I hung out with Vanessa for an hour and some change and we walked 2 miles and I was very happy.  In the evening, Piper and I...

This morning I laid in bed and thought of every reason why I should stay in bed.  And I listened to those reasons.  I didn't get up like I knew I should have and I did do what makes me the happiest.  I thought about my agreement with Thomas about no more races this year and quite frankly, I don't think I can stick with that.  There is nothing left to push towards, no external motivators, no outside thing to make me want to hit my goal for the year.  At this point, it's just a number that I don't see as a number I could reach.  I thought of how I can sign up for some virtual runs.. the YesFit.com kind.  The ones that I have to run all the miles to get the medal for.  I had thought of this earlier this year, but ruled it out a month and some change ago. From Friday Morning.. Moonlight on the Lake And then it hit my why I was feeling like this.  I hadn't taken my meds or run in a day.  No wonder there was much whoa is me feelings of s...